Momentum

Whoa.


No really, whoa. As if that phrase could somehow slow down my life, even for just a minute. 5 minutes would be great. Sure, an hour would be pushing it, but I'd sure take a 25 hour day here and there. It must be God's gift to us that the universe does have its set laws and limits. Something would be drastically wrong if we suddenly had 25 hour days. Something would be drastically wrong within our souls if we were forced to keep pushing one more hour each day.

Except for the people who never noticed the extra hour and simply went on living as always, only they would get an extra hour of sleep each night. That sounds nice, too.

I didn't realize till after the fact how much I expended my energies into pouring into others' lives today. I enjoyed it, but it cost me to the point where I came back into my room overwhelmed and hoping no one would catch me before I could safely lock the door and crawl under the covers. I don't like feeling that way. There's a point where too much interaction is just too much.

It's not as though 5 hours of constant interaction is too much; but it wasn't balanced. It's the whole input-output concept. I wasn't getting enough input to be able to put out that much output... which isn't healthy. I'd sooner hang myself than do that all year. That's not what Barnabas is about. It's the process of wrestling with the balance that counts more.

Thank goodness I'm able to see this about myself, before I go on doing it without realizing it.

I'm going to hole up tomorrow morning and afternoon, working on stuff for dorm retreat, and then spend time with an old friend, followed by some possible "fun night" activities with Mosaic (because I want to support them and get to know some of them. And to have fun).

Saturday, though, and Sunday, will be major expending days: Dorm Retreat! And it's going to be fun, and intense, and hopefully somehow relaxing. Geez. I risk being wholly exhausted, but I've got to trust my good friend Yeshua for this one ;)

Boom: Friday. Boom: Saturday & Sunday. Boom: Monday... and J.Fellows interview. Boom Boom Boom Boom: I find out if I got the internship or not. Yikes! I'm nervous because I want the placement soooooo badly... not nervous about the actual interview (yet.)

Ok. I need rest. Time for bed.


Betsy