So. Now I want to read Getting Marriage Right by Dr. David Gushee. Why? Because I met him this afternoon and he seemed to have some really good things to say. There was a "conversation" in the chapel undercroft for persons interested in ministry about the topic of marriage, and I decided it was worth checking out. I asked so many questions that after the third one, he wanted to know what my name was. Ha. :) He's also doing a public lecture tonight, so I'll go to that with a couple of girls on my floor.
Life is good.
I'm finding that I'm really starting to slack off in speech and a little bit in geography because it's too easy. Both of them are 100-level classes, though. I've been getting 100% on the "geo-quizzes" and the only questions I get wrong in oral rhetoric are the questions that are phrased awkwardly (like what exactly does he mean by "directional"? Is that linguistic direction or spatial direction?) and so on.
It really has helped my homework load to have classes two days a week, without any 3-per-week courses. How refreshing. It's going to be a reality check to have to take Chem 101 and a lit class next semester. BUT at least my GPA is still at a healthy >3.5 area, so that gives me some fall-back room, and because this semester was 17 credits, hopefully I can bring that down to 14 if I need to.
October is always going to be a hard month for me for the rest of my life. Not only are does the September high start decreasing, but it's a very emotionally charged month for me. September 30 is my mom's remarriage anniversary, and I don't usually realize it until the next day anyway. Not that it's a bad thing she's remarried (I'm so glad she is) but what that means for the void of my own dad in my life. That's only accentuated by the fact his death is at the end of October. It's like my month of grief, returning almost Sabbatically for me, so I don't forget that part of my history and my identity. I miss my dad a lot. There are a lot of things that I've grown into and learned about that I wish I could talk to him about. I have a lot of questions, too. Sometimes I'm driving home from Harrison Park and I'll think of calling my mom, and I wish that I could call him and tell him about the joys of teacher aiding, too. I'm trying to avoid phrasing these emotions in a "I wish I had done that" or "I should have done this" because the person I was then is not the same person I am now. It's irrevelant to regret what I didn't do then, because I couldn't do then what I wish I could do now. I know he would have been proud of me. I just wish I could go home for Sunday dinner and see him there, to give him a hug, I wish there wasn't a void in my heart & life where he should be.
Drinking two cans of Coke is not healthy, nor does it feel good in the tummy.
I'm going to see if I can't get something done before Gushee's lecture~
Love.
Betsy
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I think you should have conversations with your dad in the car, kind of like praying, but talk aloud in the car and just tell him what you would want to tell him. You'll probably start picturing what he would say back. And, the conversation might end up as a prayer. So glad your enjoying teaching! Right now it consumes me and there is not time to do all the fun stuff you want to do like your mini lesson. Enjoy it while you can-at some point, regulations, rules and things you have to do come into play. One of my partners and I replanned a Social Studies unit this week and are so excited to teach it now.
^ Becky
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