Surreal

It's Thursday.

Unfortunately, I missed lunch with Heidi, which made me so sad. But I did sleep in until 11:30am which was blissful (until I realized that I missed lunch with Heidi) so I'm pretty rested. For the most part. Some unexpected tension and tears got thrown in there, too, but the boyfriend saved the day (he's good at that) and I've been able to enjoy some of the fantastic weather.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about the changes happening in my life, especially within this past year. I realized that it has been 9 months since Jordan broke up with me, 5 months since I got back from Scotland and 4 since I started dating Eric.

Time is a funny thing. It feels like eternity since my dad died (over 2 and a half years ago, now) and honestly it scared me today when I realized how I've forgotten a lot of what he was like. I really have to think for a while before I can get that mental picture of who he was back in order. I'm lucky that Eric reminds me a lot of him, but it still caught me off guard.

And yet this semester, even these last 6 months, seem to have disappeared in an instant. I'm so lucky that my time in Scotland didn't feel rushed. I miss it, though. I miss it so much. I still feel like Glasgow is home.

Home. Interesting thought. I'm going to be living with Mom & Jessey this summer, and I'm not sure how that one's gonna go. I'm a bit nervous about it, truthfully. I have a feeling I'm going to get sick of it pretty quickly. That and missing Eric will make it tough. Life is so different than last year-- I was packing up to leave for Yellowstone right now. Wow. Life changes so quickly.


"They serve God best who only stand and wait" --Milton.

That's a lesson that I learned in my Brit Lit class. It's from Milton's poem "When I consider How My Light was Spent," and one application is that basically there's going to be times in my life where I can't be on the other side of the world (or the country) serving and using my abilities the way I love to. Sometimes I'm going to have to be entering data or doing homework or just getting through a transitional time in my life, but that doesn't make my work any less valuable. It's what God wants me to be doing right now, whether I really like it or not. It's hard, though, when I've got the worse case of "Itchy Feet" (I can't stay in one place for long) ever.

And yet, I am content. Right now, I'm writing. I need to write more. And I'm watching my african cichlid fish out of the corner of my eye-- she's burrowing and it's a lot of fun to watch her sliding herself under the coca-cola glass I have in her tank and spitting out sand everywhere. :)

As for these next few months, well, I guess I hope they fly by, too. But it won't be so bad. It wouldn't hurt me for my life to slow down a little bit. Maybe I'll even get a chance to read some books this summer. That would be pretty sweet. I have a reading list to catch up on, after all!

Loves.

Betsy