what a day!

Spent the day with some of my favorite people: Lauren, Heidi & Samara, my mommy... :) It was busy, but Restful all at the same time.

I also saw "No Reservations" which was so heartwarming. My mom and I both thought that the grief in the film was done exceptionally well; it was realistic and tasteful. My mom and I were both in tears, but we also laughed at the pretty appropriate humor. I'd like to see it again when it comes out on DVD. :)

It's so hard to believe that the summer is over for me--this is my last weekend home! Sheesh. But overall it was such a relaxing, restful time for me to grow and appreciate the beautiful things. (And even though work was stressful and could have been better, it was still a good experience in the end.)

Next week at this time, I'll be with Barnabas! Yay! But the weirdest thought is that in two weeks, Eric will be back in Michigan. I can imagine that it'll be good to see him again, although I know that difficult questions are inevitable. There's simply been a lot happening to my inner life that needs to be expressed and clarified. I don't know where that will take us-- but I know that it'll be best. So much has already changed. My expectations and values have also shifted somewhat since last spring-- I'm more focused, more aware, more conscientious. I don't doubt that things have changed for him as well, and I'm a flexible and open person. But I also want to be realistic and recognize that things could possibly have changed for us in the last 3 months (over 13 weeks!) that we've spent apart.

Yet I'm ready for change to happen. I'm anticipating moving back to Calvin now more than I was as a Freshman! Of course, (as I was reminded tonight by an email) I also need to remain in the moment, however tempting it is to zoom past the next six days without thought. Last year I was preparing for Scotland and that preparation was a reflection of my internal preparation as well-- I should do that with the same intentionality. The unexamined life is not worth living. (Thanks, CS Lewis, for pounding that into my head this summer.)

Time for some rest. Church in the morning-- possibly my last week at Faith CRC for a while! Sad. I've really enjoyed it. There's a very familial sense to that place.


Love.
Betsy