"Describe your faith journey..."
"...Why is becoming a Jubilee Fellow important to you?"

Geez. Where do I begin? Such difficult questions. Too bad I can't simply download my memories and have them projected in film for others to "get it" for themselves. But alas; that wouldn't show how I've come to respond and process those experiences... Anyway. Lofty thoughts. I'm trying to get them grounded in reality.

I'm tempted to begin my essay with the blunt truth: There are parts to ministry that I don't like, and going into ministry is certainly not where I thought I'd be when I was, say, 10 years old. (But the essay's not quite as focused if I do it that way, however true it is.)

What do I say? How do I say it?

Perhaps what is needed here is a prayer to the Holy Spirit-- prayer that my words would be well received with the Spirit's understanding.

Sigh.

I want to get this done sooner than later, since it's due October 1st and I'm only going to get busier before then.


I think I need some good ol T.Merton, from No man is an island:

"In planning the course of our lives, we must remember the importance and dignity of our own freedom. A man who fears to settle his future by a good act of his own free choice does not understand the love of God. For our freedom is a gift God has given us in order that He may be able to love us more perfectly, and be loved by us more perfectly in return." (p132)

"It remains for us to take up courageously and without hesitation the work He has given us, which is the taks of living our own life as Christ would live it in us." (p135)



Hmmmm. I think I may know where to go with this essay, now. :)

Betsy