lonely.

Forgot what a Friday with no plans (and no boyfriend, for that matter) felt like.

It's pretty lonely, and I've been ridiculously bored. Had a brief date with Thomas Merton (ok, so like a literary, not really real-since he's dead- date...) which was only partially stimulating since what I really wanted was some action. :P

I could do homework, but who really wants to do that at 10pm on a Friday?

Note to self: make plans for next week. Or else.


Bets

::edit:: (later)

Okay, okay. So I'm going to look at this from a more positive stance. I, obviously, have a choice in how to spend my time and about whether or not I'll enjoy the time that is given to me.

I've been dreaming about Teach for America (TFA, teachforamerica.org) lately. Seems like something I'd really enjoy doing. It's a division of Americorp, which is like Peace Corp. Claire Beyer, who graduated from HCHS a couple years before me, is currently serving in Texas and I've been messaging her via Facebook about it. I'm intrigued, at any rate. I'd still like to do Peace Corp, but somehow TFA just appeals to me at more levels, minus the fact that I'm still in the USA ;)

I don't know whether it's the idealistic 20s, or if it's actually who I am, that draws me to service and a desire to live simply and to give to others. I don't want a big salary (just enough to pay off my loans will do, thank you very much) and I'm content to find my niche among the poor and under-resourced, in diverse and challenging settings. It's just what I want to do. I'd work for free all of my life if I could.

Brings me back to thinking about Jubilee Fellows. What an interesting opportunity I've gotten myself into! A couple of girls on my floor congratulated me today, as there was an announcement in Student News. They didn't know what it was, but figured out that it was a cool thing that their Barnabas was doing. Hehe. I really (really) hope to be living in a city (at least the size of GRap, if not bigger!) next summer. I just love cities. I want to be where the people are, and to learn a new bus route and to be able to walk places. God appears to me in glorious ways in cities in a more personal way than He appears in the great open spaces of the west. It's easy to point to a landscape and say "wow, God is in that," but you don't see the same charateristics of God that you see when you walk down the city street and realize in subtle ways how God is present and longing to be part of our lives and pressing in around the tall buildings, ready for action, ready to build community. I just want to carve out my heart and give it to someone who is homeless if it means I've given it to Jesus.

Well. Sleep is always a scarcity, so I'm going to jump in bed now.

Love & Joy,

Betsy