Senior Year (Semester 1 of 3)

What I know about being a senior in college:

You're really busy. All the time. And if you're not busy, you're procrastinating.



Surprisingly, at the moment I am not actually that busy and I'm not really procrastinating, either. I have a couple hours until my night class, and all my readings are done already. I just wrapped up the last parts of my Jubilee Fellows report (read: portfolio/project/thingy that is massive because of all the parts we had to include!) so I'm currently basking in the relief of having all of the paperwork completed. It's also a beautiful day today, so that's been a real blessing, too. With all the rain we've had lately, I forgot how good it felt to sit in the sunshine. My friend Mary and I ate our sack (Tupperware?) lunches out on the Commons lawn today and had a good long conversation about the new academic year.

Speaking of which, I couldn't be more delighted with my classes this semester. The professors are great, and many of them have started to treat us like colleagues rather than students. I can't believe how far I've come academically since I started as a Freshman! I can't believe how well I've done, either. That was a surprise! :)

I want to be content. I want contentment in my "season of singlehood" but I also want contentment in this moment, in my studying, in my reflections and in my worship. I'm not talking about the apathetic kind of "contentment", either. The contentment I long for doesn't have anything to do with sitting back and letting the world go by and remaining uninvolved because I'm stuck in a rut. Rather, it's just the opposite: it's contentment that would allow me to be fully present in this moment, now, without needing anything to supplement it. It's a contentment that leads to action, because I'm aware and ready to go. It's a contentment with the identity that God has given me, and a contentment in HIS call for me over my own preferences. (See the distinction?)

Can't complain. Life is, as they say, good.

I'm a different, but more grounded, person than I was last year. I am refreshed. :) Renewed, even, to use Calvin mantra!


Betsy